Saturday, April 17, 2010

a bad day

Okay, so I know that page is life fullness and grace, but today I am going to complain but whay a crappy day this been. Since I have nada voice, I mean no voice, I can't really complain to anyone else, cause they won't hear me.
Well, I start I lost my voice yesterday. After fighting misgrains all week, yeater started with the a chest infection. Great! Now I can bot speak even to my kids. Yeah they love it, but I can't disciplain them, and it making me crazy....

Then as I got up out of bed, my husband decides this is the day to do errans, so I got ready, got kids dressed, and then hubby announces he has to shower and do a million other thing before we leave. And it take forever (not really, just feels like it) cause I now have 4 screaming kids ready, and father who not.

Then we decide to go for a cheap breakfast, money has been really really tight!! I mean we have had to cut back a lot. And there are months with I don't know how we get though. But this this time of always seem though with so many birthday and etc. We always pinced. Any way, breakfast at the resturant that used to be cheap isn't, it was 60+. And that was for no so great food.
Then I have to pick up a birthday gift for the best sister in law in the world (no joking, she is) and I the people at walmart are stupid. Like it should have been in and out in like 2 min, instead it took almost an hour. Crazy!!!
Then, one the way home hubby and I decide to talk about me going back to work. That's great since I have no voice. I have heard of some opporunities from a friend in burlington. And there a big part of me that want to go and do it. But, what if I can't? It would mean us moving there, and then we have to come up with the money for the move. And with thing being so darn tight, I have no idea how that going to happen. I mean I know. With me working and us having 2 incomes it will be great, but it's the whole saving issue, I don't see me being so good at. To be honest I have nothing to do with our finances, I ask hubby before I spend anything. And have no idea what bills we pay, or don't that's all up to him.

I guess today has just been so crappy cause, finances are so darn tight, and I wanna move out this darn city to somewhere people actually have respect for on another. And I want this stupid cold to go away. And the sun to come out.

I guess I am just one unhappy camper!!! And it sucks!!!

Thanks for listening!!!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

A New Friend

Hello World,

I recently have made a new friend and I want to write about her becuase it just proves that it doesn't matter the age difference, or anyother circumstnace, you can be friends, and laugh more then you ever have

I started back to school in Janruary. and i was so afraid, because I haven't done the whole school thing in like .... Well years. and i was being ver ambititious. i was going to get my medical office assistiant certificate. I think i only did it becuase well, i wanted to learn, and didn't care at first what it was. but now, I am almost done the first semester nad just signed up for the next. and looking forward to it very much. I love people, I love supporting people, and being there for them.

I remember the first night of class walking and see this not to tall lady standing ther and introduced her self as our medicial Terminology teacher. She started talking and wrote a term on the board that we know kow but at the time ws like okay i should just walk away now, becuase I never gonna get this, the ward we 27 letter long and crazy. but, as everyone in the class got to know eachother we got to discover that we were all much alike non of us, was any more or less in world of medical terminology. and we would all be okay, and make our way though this course.
the friendship that made the most difference was with the professor of the course, she is a lady who always comes in with a smile. and will go the extra mile to help you. She will not allow the words can't to comeout of the mouth. and she isn't one for negitivity. She rather someone who mkaes you laugh when you want to cry and someone who makes you feel like you can do anything. I remember walking in to class one night after a really bad day, and I was thinking i probably should nt have come. and She knew something was wrong, and by the time i left to go home, i ws in tears by laughing so much. Now, she has had her fair share of trials, but she has come out on the other side amiling. i think everyone in class looks up to her.

She has become a great friend to judst sit and have a coffee with and to just open up to, becuase you know she isn't judging.

I know it may seem weird that with our age difference, and background, and well, we are different in everyway, but you could say that we are kindred spirits, and we have fun.

We are actually meeting for coffee soon and i am sure it will be a nice change for both of us, since we then have to go from galpals to student teacher!! but after class the fun continues!!

so off to a coffee am I, and to laugh like nothing else. (we act goffy) and then to do part A of a final, and to do well cause i will have laughed all the stress away!!


(update you on the exam tomorrow)

Complaining!!! and studying!!!

did you ever have a day where the weather outside matched your mood? well, that would be me today. I am feel so tired, and the !0 of not sleeping at all are finally catching up. I seem to go to bed at a reasonable time, but then, see every hour on the clock. because of this my grade have gone down, mostly becuase my energy level has gone down., by well half. Also becuase we now have to carry Matty every where with his cast on, he is chuncky!!!

Sorry I know I am complaning, but this is what I am allowed to do the day of part A of a finial edxam that i could care less about studying about, and must because if not i will fail and failing is not an option.

but, at least i get to look forward to having a coffee with a new friend and i get to laugh.

Well going to run and study!!

Monday, March 29, 2010

day to day

Sorry I haven't written everyday like i promised. but, life has been crazy.

See last tuesday matty fell and broke his leg. And trying to control and 2 year with a broken limb as been crazy. he'll get the cast off in 6 weeks. but i have to admit, he has learnt nothing from the injury, this has just made him worst then ever. he is a great kids though.

Then i have school, and coming in to exam time if crazy. the next 3 weeks of my life will be shear pain. 9 classes left and an exam in everyone. Crazy!!

Then yesterday was a blessed day! We have a Baby shower for an amazing friend. It was so nice to get to a chance to shower her with gifts, and the food was will amazing.

But i promise to get back to doing this everday, and to start, doing it as i enjoy my daily coffee.. Yummy!!!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

thoughts for today!!!!

in this Blog will talk about the journey that is life. I wanna share our lives with you, and what this roller coaster is like.
Who I am?
I am a mom of four. I call them my angels. I love them to pieces. they are what causes many noisy hectic days and a equal amount of sleepless nights. but I wouldn't trade it ever.
I am type of person who always wanted things to be different, Truth is I wanna be different.
Recently I have become a person who feel like they have a lot to prove, because well I do.
I have changed and grown in just last few months alone. I am not the person I once was. I want the world to see it.
You see, I am some what of a social butterfly. I move always, I mean even if I am sitting down, I have a foot or finger something moving. and without other people to interact with I'm not me.
I've been told that I could talk to anyone and everyone, and that I can relate to most people. and i guess I can. I love to surrounded with people especially if it someone who I can help feel better.
But there are people who see this as a bad thing. They worry that being so depended on people is a bad thing that can hinder you.
You see although I can get along with anyone, and everyone. I only have a couple of close friends that know the real me. I guess I am not the type of person who where her heart on her sleeve, and who accepts help easily. I used to, but i have gotten alot tougher. I have been hurt alot in the past, i mean alot. but i am not the person i once was. I keep my emotions in check, and have learned how to keep everything hidden. I guess I hold people at an arms length and if anyone breaks thought these walls I tend to have up, I push them away.
but this will be away to help everyone see a different side of me.